Where I am.

It's obviously been awhile, but I have no subscribers and therefore no one to apologize to. It's better that way. I'm currently sitting on the floor of my bathroom, which is one of my favorite sitting spots. It's not THAT weird because I'm the only one who uses it and it's heated. What is a little weird is that I'm wearing my senior prom dress.

I graduate at the beginning of May. Well, technically I graduated in December, but I walk in a few weeks. It's the end of an era, so because I'm a girl and stuff, I'm trying to decide what to wear. In found my senior prom dress, and since it's been altered, it's actually a solid choice if I want to save some money. But now I'm all nostalgic and stuff. This really is the end of an era, just like senior prom marked the end of the last era in my life.

Four years ago I was getting ready for AP tests and show choir finals and the pops concerts for both band and choir. I was 18 and about 20lbs lighter (not that anyone's counting, right?) and I had long-ish frizzy blonde hair. I was not concerned about college, because I hadn't ever seriously failed at anything. My biggest worries were my freedom (or lack thereof, I'm still bitter about how strict my parents were about my social life) and my love life, which was in a much happier place than it's been since then.

I recently met up with some friends from high school over a rare weekend that we all happened to be home at the same time. We talked about how much life has changed for all of us since then. Several of my friends have been with the same person for years now. Others are just as determinedly single as me. Some are moving on to graduate school, finishing a masters program, or part way through a professional program. I want to say that we never would have dreamed that we'd be where we are, but that's totally untrue.

I am sitting on my bathroom floor in a prom dress. I have a job in an office, I have a cubicle with a plant and a nameplate tacked to the outside with my name on it. I live in a nice house, I have a nice car, and I can afford to pay all my expenses and still travel. I can't say that I never dreamed I'd be here. This is exactly what I dreamed I'd have, no more and no less.

My high school friends told me I'd changed the most out of all of us. I say it's because I had significant, mind-binding experiences that I never expected. Some of you out there know what I mean. If I had anticipated everything, or if those things had not happened, I would not have changed so dramatically. Would I still have a job, and a place to stay and a car? I'm sure of it. It's what I was raised to work for. Would I still be sitting on my bathroom floor in a prom dress? Probably, who doesn't like playing dress up every once in awhile?

I guess what I'm trying to say is, it really is the journey that matters, not the destination.

Shade of blue: my prom dress, of course. Tom was my prom date. Tom, if you ever happen to read this... I had a blast. I still think I could not have enjoyed it more. I hope you had fun, too :)

Track of the day: "Triumph" by Pitbull.